Wednesday, January 11, 2023

Nine Years

It is such a long time - encompassing so many obstacles and much more growth and change than I ever could have fathomed. Depths of grief I wasn't sure we could climb out of and mountain top joys where we are always aware of your physical absence.


Nine years!


I was 42 when we said goodbye, now I am 51. Our children are now 22 and 23. So much life has been lived without you by our side.


It's hard to think of how different our lives would be today if you were still here.

Hard and useless.

Comparison can be a thief of joy.


I recently sat down to pay the kids' final semester bursar bills.


I cried with thankfulness to God for seeing us through these nine years.


I cried with the realization of the celebrations on the horizon where your presence will be missed.


I cried with gratitude for you., Thank you for loving us so completely,. Thank you for leading us. Thank you for providing for us. Thank you for choosing me in 1995 and for building our family together.


I am so incredibly proud of our children. Their resilience. Their work ethic. Their intense dedication to walk through their grief and improve on themselves. I am excited to see where this gift of education leads them in their lives; what trajectory their careers take, how they continue to grow personally. I may have written the checks, but they showed up, did the hard work well, and earned their soon to be awarded degrees.


A lot can change in nine years. A lot of positive can be accomplished.


I have faltered at plenty in this journey, but when it comes to our kids; I am confident your legacy has been honored and we have made you proud.

Timothy Wayne Streller

04/03/1968 - 01/11/2014

Even If

School Awards Assembly 2014
Lunch Date with Mom 2023